I've been wondering

I've been wondering on a road
That goes nowhere but here and there
Because nowhere is still here and there.
When a life ends, it ends and slips
Into the unknown of those still alive
Breathing freshly old passed air
That has traveled around the globe

K.Oni

The Queen died and so must we all.

 The Queen died and so must we all. One day, death will knock on our door and we must bid him entry. We may deny him for a while but time will bring him in. Will we be ready? At times, death comes unexpected and hit us blindly. Such are called misfortunes! But are you ready for the after? You will again open your eyes and shall be in a new realm, in a new place, in front of the Judge, the Judge of all Judges. And what shall be your plea for before you their lies Heaven or Hell. Will you be acquitted or be found guilty. The Queen died and so she too will face her Judge. So will you.

K.Oni

No Furit

 On the vine  

No fruit 

Is it me Lord?

On the water

Im sinking Have I no faith?

Do I know you

I'm in denial By how I am living.

K.Oni

Whenever I remember her

Whenever I remember her, which is not much, I remember her elegant ways. She stands tall like a proud tree, always striving forward and diligence in her walk with the Lord. 

At times, I remember her in my prayers and give thanks to God for her. I pray for her wellness and that her happy union will indeed be a picture of Christ and the Church. I pray for blessed fertility and may her house prosper to the glory of Christ. 

Those azure eyes, flaxen hair, aristocratic dignity is a manifestation of her humble heart towards her Lord. I remember her fondly and when in her gaze, I always feel like opening my heart to her, for she commands that enchantment on my soul. 

K.Oni

Your time

We can easily lose ourselves in the world of entertainment. 

It becomes our escape. We forget about the tragedies of this world or the fact that at the end of this life, we will all come before the judgement seat of Christ. 

What are we doing with our time? 

Some have said that life is lived in moments. Are you ready?

Is it all vanity and the best thing for us is to eat and drink and be merry?

Or better yet, should we not spend our time Loving God and loving our neighbour as we love ourselves?

Where am I going with this? Only for us to think of what we are doing with our time because one day it will end.

If you are disappointed right now with your past and your efforts thus far, how will you change it so that you can look back and be satisfied.

For me, only those things done for Christ and for his glory will satisfy me. 

May I lose myself in Jesus and not in anything else. If I lose my life for his sake, then I find it. 

K.Oni

Miscellanies 131

 It is a new year and what should I make of it other than to live it to the glory of God. I am not a prophet so I have no word on the future of events and what will take place. It could be my dying year or a year where perhaps I get married or accomplish things beyond my wildest dreams. In any case this year I want to be more of a leader and one who takes the initiative. 

Life is not easy in fact most of us find it hard. But we live on in hope. I live on in Christ and I hope to be a good and faithful servant.

K.Oni

Miscellanies 130

 When we need help we want God to look at us and hear us - we want his attention, but when we sin we want him to overlook us or in many cases, we are not even concerned or care or not aware that he sees us. Such is this generation and there are many who do not seek him or delight in him but want his gifts. O help us dear Lord have a pure heart that seeks first your kingdom.

K.Oni

I want to know the truth and enjoy the highest good

I want to know the truth and enjoy the highest good. But where can I find it? Certainly not here on earth. If not here on earth then it must be somewhere in the universe. But if it is not in the universe then it must be outside of the universe. What is the truth anyway if there is indeed a singular truth or to put it another way, who dictates truth because everything must have the truth behind it which would naturally come from the originator or the creator of it. Not as an artist who joins this material and that material together to make another thing but an artist who had no raw materials to begin with, but created everything out of nothing and thus deciding its properties and uses. Surely, it is this being that knows what the truth is or is in fact the truth. And if this being is the truth and knows the truth then it must know what the highest good is that mankind can enjoy. That highest good I want to enjoy completely and eternally. The answer did come that Jesus Christ is the truth and that He created mankind for himself and that the Godhead has called mankind into fellowship with themselves so that mankind can enjoy the highest pleasure which is to be in sweet communion with the living God.

K.Oni

Dear God, please help us

Dear God, please help us

The situation is dire

But nobody wants to listen.

The warning is shunned of your displeasure

Humanity is heading to its grave 

The saints are preaching but there are few faithful remaining 

The mass has drunk deep and followed the world into being deaf.

Dear God, please help

The catastrophe when it comes will be undeniable 

Holy Spirit please convict

Or lift your people out of this mess so that we can be in peace.

K.Oni

Forgive me Lord for the times that I have not shown the beauty of your worth

Forgive me Lord for the times that I have not shown the beauty of your worth in public and in private. Forgive me for the times I have gone with the world and displayed an odious character that is contrary to your will. I am to be a representation of your Son. I am perhaps the only bible that some will ever read and how I have spectacularly failed in some regards. O, may the hell in me be gone. May all my corruptions cease and I live a most glorious holy life that magnifies Jesus and displays the beauty of his worth. 

My life is with the Lord of Hosts. My God is the God of Jacob, the one who walked on water and calmed the storm. I know that my God is in control. He is the King of glory, the Lord Almighty. 

K.Oni

I have heard some talk about the church

I have heard some talk about the church without ever thinking of what the church is in the biblical sense. Their only sentence is that we are the church as if that is all the bible has to say about it. Because of this, they think of the church so flippantly as to not consider it a grave sin to Christ if we do not think right about it, for after all, the Church is his body. It is as if they slap him in the face with his very hands. But Christ is ever patient and lovely but at times he visits his own with redemptive judgment. May we not lose our lampstands!

K.Oni

Sometimes I wonder if long life is my portion

Sometimes I wonder if long life is my portion? 

I know eternal life is mine. 

I wonder when the angels will come

When my final breath will be drawn.

What will my story be

What my legacy is?

May my story be simple yet deep

May it be delightful 

May it be sweet in that 

I pursued his glory

I pursued him for all of my days. 

K.Oni

Miscellanies 129

I must by all means exert myself to live for Jesus. Each day I must crucify my flesh and earthly desires and seek that which is above. I must set my mind upon him who is the true sum of all my delights. I can trace all of my unhappiness to disobedience to his will or to put it in another way, to when I have not set my mind upon him, who is the end of all my joy. May I ever press towards the upward prize and live entirely for him being truthful in all of my ways. 

K.Oni

Miscellanies 128

Perhaps I understand why David in the psalms preached to his own soul. Some would consider it an oddity but it makes sense. Indeed for the Christian, the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. The Christian is often his own worst enemy.

I know that I am my own worst enemy. I know how to be constantly happy. Yet I do the things that make me unhappy.

Consider this, namely, that the Christian is sealed with the Holy Spirit and has Him as a permanent residence. The Christian's body is a temple and one of the Christian's duty is to not grieve the Holy Spirit but be in step with the Spirit. yet how many of us daily grieve the Spirit? By grieving Him we cause ourselves to be miserable because we can bear no fruit of joy.

Woe is that Christian who is happy whilst the Spirit inside of Him is grieving.

K.Oni

The woman was deceived but not the man

It is said that the woman was deceived by the devil and not the man. This means that Adam knew exactly what the devil's game was. Unlike the woman, he wasn't convinced by the serpent's word but knew it to be wrong whereas the woman was taken in by it. But why did he eat it when he knew that the devil was lying. It could only be to join in with the woman and rather than being alone he joined in with her. Perhaps the devil knew this that if he would have given the man the fruit, then the man would have rejected it. Perhaps he had tried it before but Adam told him to get behind him, but he went to the woman, and the woman having been convinced then gave to the man who could not reject his beloved. How often it is that many are persuaded by friends to do that which they know is wrong. But what would have happened if only the woman ate the fruit and Adam rebuked her for it? Would Eve be banished and another created for Adam and man would have passed his trial. I know not. Or if the man was deceived and the woman rebuked Adam for eating the fruit? Would Adam be banished and Eve remain in paradise? Whatever would have happened in both of those situations, God's judgment would be entirely righteous and without fault. But it is so that they both fell together and partook in the disobedience by eating the fruit. One did not abstain so both were entirely guilty and the ages testify to their guilt in their sons and daughters.

K.Oni

Miscellanies 127: Keep on reading

I am in the habit of reading again or listening to books and how sweet it is to my soul. My head is full of thoughts and ideas and writing comes so easily. It is true that one ought to keep on reading if one wants to be a writer, or if one wants to constantly be full of ideas that it is wise to read. My head is ever engaged and I am becoming all the wiser for it. O to continue and to never cease. To keep on this difficult mountain for after a while I take a pause and see the wonderful scenery about me and I marvel that poor I have come so far.

K.Oni

Miscellanies 126: I will not lose the sunshine in my soul

I will not lose the sunshine in my soul and that sunshine which is only dimmed by sin, but Christ has paid it all. Yet I will not live in a way that I sin so that grace may abound. I will leave my sins because grace does abound and has been given kindly to me in the greatest of sacrifice.

K.Oni

Whatever is my weakest thing

Whatever is my weakest thing, that makes me look down,
Let me not be ashamed of it
But embrace it and seek ways to improve
If improvement is what is needed,
Like snoring in my sleep
or being the slowest runner,
These things at times can't be helped
and although it makes me weak
Let me not hide my face
But walk in the light of day.
And if it is sin, like lust and greed
Then let me confess and move on
And forsake it, and even if I fail daily
Let me, even more, forsake it
And give glory to the living God.

K.Oni

Miscellanies 125: I will fight for joy

What makes me happy the most in this world is when I am walking in the light of life, that is walking in step with the Holy Spirit, it is walking as I am called to walk in Jesus. It is fixing my gaze upon the Son of God and obeying the will of His Father. It is me constantly thinking about Him and being unashamed of His gospel and of His ways. It is being not sorry about bringing Him into every conversation as wisdom sees fit. May I walk in wisdom towards outsiders. Yet I feel so sad, and I know why I do, it is because I have neglected Him and walked according to the lust of my mind. O foolish man that I am, who will deliver me from this body of death, for it really is a body of death. It seems that I curse myself, that in every victory gained I take two steps back. And I have been unwise to the temptations of the devil. Every time I walk in holiness, I see the evil one's hand bringing temptation to my face, and being complacent I do not fight it vigorously, and then I soon find myself in deep misery. But I will fight for joy! I will be the kindest and sweetest, and meekest, and humblest person. I will aim to live according to my calling and will forsake the standards of the world. Help me dear Lord, and please visit me with the sweet kiss of forgiveness for I have gravely sinned against you! Let this Christmas produce a deep transformation, a deep turn around, that next year I produce fruit worthy of your kingdom. Allow me, dear Lord, to be a writer and a theologian, to convey the truth of your love and holiness to this generation. That my voice may be of the prophets of old, and if you see this as not being worthy of me, then please use me in as little or as big your wisdom sees fit. I trust in your judgments. But in all this, let me have the sweet joy which you give to your servants. I will not recant nor repent of my service towards you.

K.Oni

Miscellanies 124: She was looking for a good guy

She was looking for a good guy, I said to her to go to church. She replied, what about you? I replied I’m the worst of all. I am the chief of sinners, I’ll end up breaking both of our hearts. It will be wise if you pass me by and go to church to find a better man than me. She replied, then you will come to church with me. I laughed and admired her persistence.

K.Oni