This numbing feel

What is it to be, to see the darkness in the coldness of the heat. The mind wonders through barren fields, mortar and ashes are the grass under my feet. The dead sky lingers above stifling my scene, agonizing appeal, I hear the fleeing birds shriek. Is it all an immortal dream, where mortals weak, and sovereign hands cannot relieve this dark unsettling thing, in my mind where all my feelings reach. 

Speak not, my mouth silent be. Muted ears to an outsider's speech; but faint noise, yet too loud causes an antagonistic feel. Help! But their eyes my pain cannot greet. This darkness, did it arise from an ancient creed, or programmed from the seed? 

Refrain from commenting on my existence, unless my lips upon yours be, then for a minute, or for the length of our misdeed, I feel a sensation until the climatic release. It feels like the sun through the clouds break, but after sleep, I awake with a numbing feel, of the darkness in the coldness of the heat; my mind wonders through deeper barren fields, mortar and ashes are the grass still under my feet. 

K.Oni

Blind to her vices

Her keen mind penetrates my august soul, 
Harmless beauty, superficially gentle, 
To my evening eyes, under weather, 
Cold but kind, the mask of the dawn 
Unleashes a soft storm, 
Pulsating like a consecrated stream. 
Hallowed, the strength of my humane loyalty 
To her method of profound cupidity. 
Stillness awe, hilarity gathering 
Beneath hidden thoughts. 
Respectful, courteous to her proud ways, 
A cheap fanatic, but fantastically extraordinary. 


K.Oni

There's a lady I want to make my own

There's a lady I want to make my own 

Who makes my life shine, dazzling Gold. 

She is all lovely and never strange to me 

But it is a shame, my shame 

That she doesn't feel the same


K.Oni

I say goodbye to my sins

I say goodbye to my sins  Never to sleep with you again,  Fair well Iron master!

K.Oni

Jesus wept for his friend Lazarus

Jesus wept for his friend Lazarus I see no reason why he would not weep for me Though not in flesh our friendship be I feel him as friendly wind on the skin. I remember when my doubts disquieted me And worry like waves drowned me in her sea, Jesus came by calming the gale Dispelling every fear without and within. Jesus wept for his friend Lazarus When my eyes close he will weep for me Though he knows in a moment I shall be by his side That will not stop aching tears falling fresh from his eyes.

K.Oni

Is it right to wish to die

Is it right to wish to die
To kiss this existence a sweet goodbye?
For my heart no meaning found,
To see another sunrise 
Will not produce a smile.
Empty is the life within,
The waves of my sea 
Calm and calmless be.
Forgotten by the sight I see
Perhaps heaven is the place I ought to be.
Goodnight world, goodnight stars,
Dear flowers your smell I will not miss
And voices heard no more I'm glad
For peace and silence shall be the state of my heart. 
No more longing, 
No more feeling
Goodbye World, 
Is it right for me to want to die. 

K.Oni