Showing posts from February, 2011

Church last night and the screams

I have often been moved by the Spirit in sweet sensations that my belly feels like a swelling fountain about to burst with all manner of affections and delight. I have often danced and moved with such fierceness that I become uncontrollable but of which I am conscious of. There was a refreshness upon this house of which I mean the church of which at almost immediately I sensed the airy presence of the Holy Spirit and that He was at work in certain individuals of which manifestations were outward in groans and screams of which may have been a disturbance to some who are not so much occupied with such manifestations. I felt in my own eyes as I fixed my eyes in space a solidness of heaviness in the air which is I took to believe evidence that God is at work in this place. Also all that the preacher was saying, the Spirit had already occupied my mind with them in the present week .

But some may found it strange and observation proved to witness certain individuals leave because they were …

Are you crippled by fear in evangelism?

Faith in God is able to cripple all your fears in evangelism. You see your fear arises because you have set your eyes upon man and not upon God. You are convinced that the man may ridicule your presentation, be wiser than you, think you a fool for believing such nonsense. You focus on yourself and your own inability and this are the reasons why you are crippled by fear but now oh man lift your eyes to the Lord and be like Caleb who did not look at the strength of the Canaanites and the weakness of Israel but he looked upon God Almighty who is the Lord of Host and the Canaanites were destroyed thus Israel entered the land flowing with milk and Honey. Set your eyes upon the Lord and delight yourself in His power for your God is able to save and if we rely on His mercy, grace and Love, then what have we to fear? For if I go out placing all of my hope in God waiting for Him to display His glory through me, will I be disappointed? Absolutely not for fear shall flee from me and with great b…

Time to pray and shine

I am moved by the restless situation that is occurring all across the world, it seems that the kingdoms of this world has been shaken. Creation is groaning and rebelling against the sinful acts of men, human establishments are crumbling and happiness is decreasing. I feel a worldwide unrest especially with the current situation in the middle east and the impact the conflict will have on the economy especially among the poor of the poorest. My soul is troubled within me and as I watched the news last night, I held my hands in my face and asked the Lord, that how do I interpret these times, what is happening and how are your people to react. There are passages to which one could turn to in the New testament, that calls for the alertness of believers, that warns that time is short and the day of judgement is at hand, therefore do not be slack but work while it is still day. Paul warns the Church at Ephesus to ‘be very careful, then, how you live - not as unwise but wise, making the most …

The past two weeks

As a student with one lecture a week and a two hour tutorial every two weeks it is remarkable to witness how much time I have and how much I could do. I could work, indulge in my pleasures, study whatever I want to study, help people and many more things. Of course there are lots of things that I could possibly be doing but without a structure I could end up doing nothing.  The past two weeks have been to me a joy and delight, constantly amazed by the grace of God and his divine provision.

Two weeks ago was UWECU events week where the Christian union put on events designed to attract non-Christians to come and hear the gospel of Christ. I loved the week but faded out towards the end for reasons of my own. I loved the gazebo where we gave out free tea and coffee for the whole week to student. I enjoyed the many conversations and the friendship established through serving tea and coffee. The questions asked where general questions of which I had encountered before so it was a pleasure t…

Black History month - Phillis Wheatley (On Being Brought from Africa to America)

In an ideal world, namely a world without sin, there would be no need for a black history month for there would be no need for the injustice of slavery and the plight of blacks to the shores of America to be treated as slaves. Also ‘educational establishments and the national curriculum would fully recognise and appreciate the contribution of black people throughout history. Sadly that is not the case’*.  Black history month grew out of the “Negro History week”, and you can read more about the development of black history month here. Black History Month is held in February in America and October in the UK.

The focus of this blog is on a particular slave artist called Phillis Wheatley. She was a slave poet of colonial America and she became the first black person to publish a book of poetry in English. Benjamin Franklin wrote a positive assessments of her poetry and upon hearing her he asked her if there was any service he could do for her. Phillis Wheatley earned herself an internatio…

Psalm 9 - An exposition

The first half of this psalm declares the victory of God’s total rule and triumph. Verses 1-12 is all affirmation, the fruit of reflection of God’s victory and justice over the wicked and vindication for the righteous. Verses 13-20 departs from this reflection and turns into a prayer arising from a state of suffering. The psalmist is seeking deliverance so that he may declare the praises of God.

Vs.1 I will give thanks to you, LORD, with all my heart. An acceptable thanksgiving is one which is from the heart, it comes from the soul, it arises from the satisfaction of the individual towards its object. God is a God who deserves constant praise for He is worthy. Our thanksgiving should always be entirely from our hearts. Notice the excitement in this verse, the psalmist prepares himself to give thanks with all of his heart, for the praising of God is the delight of his soul. I will tell of all your wonderful deeds. After thanksgiving comes declaration, the wonderful deeds of God are so a…

Long time in eternity

Its a long time in eternity  and we are only there in heaven  because of what Jesus Christ has done

Miscellanies 3 - Refreshed and comforted by His love

My Dear Lord why should my soul doubt when you have sweetly assured me of the eternity of your Love for me. My soul, doubt no more for surely as God lives and exist so does His love for me. First he is my Maker, my creator and I the creature and He is my master and I his servant.  But this is not the reason for my comfort; He is my Father and I his child. Christ is my brother, my dear friend, for He ascended unto his Father and my Father, to his God and my God. But this is not enough for me, my maker of whose image I am made is my husband and I his bride. He is the fountain of which I drink and the Sun of my day. I am a member of his body, He my head. Such wonderful truths you have made known in your words, ‘it is easier for heaven and earth to pass away than my words to fail’. Wonderful are these thoughts so spread out in the pages of your book to me that my spirit melts with awe at the consideration of them. You have done so much for me and I so little for you, but you refresh me in…

Miscellanies 2 - A dying faith

There was a boy who grew up in a Christian home and when he was old enough he left his home to live among his companions. His new life brought him closer to God and a zeal to reach his generation engulfed him as never before. He was on fire, a burning flame for the glory of God and for the conversion of the heathens. Men and woman looked upon him with great excitement and marvelled at his faith, he himself marvelled at his faith and thanked God for such grace. But his soul was sensitive to sin and one sin held him captive of which time and time again he could not defeat. He was often left paralysed and crippled and slowly but gradually it began to eat up his faith. His light was slowly burning and because of his sin of which he felt he failed so miserably left him a dying man. He felt sorrow in his soul and the faith he once had he only had a little left. He would go to church, but his heart was miserable, he could no longer pray to God in secret or had any solid desires to worship or…

When God turns a deaf ear on prayers

Does God always hear people’s prayers, or do some pray in vain thinking that God hears them, when in reality He chooses to turn a deaf hear to their cries? Some may perhaps have a notion that all prayers are worthy, and God being who He is is by nature willing to listen and hear their prayers delightfully. They entertain the notion that it is their birth right for God to listen to their prayers and answer them accordingly. Also, there are some who come before the presence of the Lord with severe doubts, defeated by the devils whisper that they are such an unworthy soul that for them to lift up their cries to the Lord is an abomination. They are mute by their own wickedness, depressed and thus fail to pray.

What does the scripture say about God turning a deaf hear to prayers? It is to be said that God is sovereign and can choose to answer any prayer as He sees fit. He is altogether happy and never backed into a corner, God always does whatever He pleases for He is free to do as He wills…

More short poems

The Black Shakespeare

His writings opened up the context of languages 
His words proclaimed on the highest mountains
Dressed in a coat ranged from the wildest beasts
And He only walked on white snows.
His traces are left like footsteps on human hearts
His thoughts are deeper than the space within
Who can question his immaculate mind, 
A genius shaped by Sovereign Hands.
Born with the slaves yet a tutor to the kings
Despised not his own but taught them freedom and peace.
‘A slave his more than a man’ he often said
‘And a man is more than a slave’ he openly declared. 


I knew the price I had to pay
I knew the choices I had made
In my desperation I designed my own grave
I crafted the wood from the reasons I gave
What is it to you, what is it to me.
The dangers I cuddle before my own eyes
If death it is to be then it was death I was begrudged to.
Now waiting; for my eternal sleep
Let no soul wake me as I lay six feet deep in the earths crypt. 


She got my heart beating like the drums in rock n roll

The Joy of confession 8

Sinner: It’s been a terrible week for me sir. I feel lost and trapped in this body of mine. I have no means to enjoy God because of my sins and when I am in such a state I fear for my fellow creatures because I withdraw to my self and care nothing of their concerns. Many may notice a change in my disposition which should be common to them now and some may enquire of my injury and with uncaring eyes I would easily dismiss them and draw to be alone. Oh but my heart is not happy, it is terribly sad and I wish not to stay like this. I feel myself not knowing who I am or who Christ is. I am gripped by fear that Christ has altogether grown weary of me and He has removed my lamp. The Father has altogether deserted me and the Spirit is silent and care not for my abominations any more. I feel wholly useless and among the saints I feel a filthy soul so I would avoid their meetings. Even so sir, I feel the terrible corruptions that feels me and many times I wish to discard myself from it but it …

I hear of a lady

I hear of a lady who is remarkably in Love
With the Being who created and rules the world
Her pleasures they say are wrapped in Him
Her delight complete in adoring Him.
Rumours whisper of their secret time
Conversing but no one in sight
Some have called her a deluded mind 
But explanations far exceeds the extra stride.
A strange sweetness occupies her mind
A galloping joy fills her smiles
The tales do bear a wonderful charm
The tales do make my heart incline. 


Be radical Lovers- "Love one another as I have loved you"

For a long time the Holy Spirit has been teaching my heart about love, of the love that Christ displayed, about the same love the apostles demonstrated; and the Holy Spirit has been tugging my soul to imitate. 2Corinthians 6:11-12 is always at the forefront of my mind which reads, “We have spoken freely to you, Corinthians, and opened wide our hearts to you. We are not withholding our affection from you, but you are withholding yours from us”. I feel like the Corinthians, I am withholding my love and have not opened wide my affections to many souls of which the Spirit convicts me that I ought to. But I hold back and stiff my affections perhaps in fear of being seen as over zealous or to be thought of as being exceedingly righteous of which criticisms my soul wishes not to employ. These are senseless reasons and I ought not to be like this but this is my consistent disposition of which my soul desires to alter.  But how can I alter my character and dispose of my fears and free myself t…

Miscellanies 1 - Salvation through faith

Faith alone is the condition for salvation and even that faith in which a man may possess is yet a gift from his saviour. You may by hearty prayers and hard work seek your salvation but until you unclench your fist and beat your chest and lift thine eyes to the heavens to declare your wretchedness and then with all manner of simplicity look with the eyes of faith to the cross, you will forever be in search for your salvation and your works will only bring you to the terror of hell. I beseech men with great fervency to leave the mountain of works and to come by the plains of grace where it is a free merry ground of easy delight. Salvation is by faith in Christ and herein alone is the remedy from eternal damnation. Forsake your works for God has not promised to grant salvation by them except through faith. To those who believe in His name, He gave them the right to become children of God.


Fixed on you

I conceived I’ll pass over your face
Discard from my memory your girlish grace
Dismiss the feelings like yesterday’s race
But here I am remembering your ways

The seasons change but mine remains
Winter chilled my love in place
The Robins have no tree to nest
The doves eschew their custom pair

I sigh my deep faded face
Mourning the day my longing grew
A fever burned my eyes to tears
Crippled by a love I wish to tear

Here I set a tent in the hills of doom
Waiting for the march of the valiant steed  
Even in times of war and death 
My heart is eternally fixed on you


Pray to be filled with the Holy Spirit each morning

Here is a challenge, a direct plea to your daily walk that after you begin your prayers with thanksgiving, commence it with an eager expectation that the Lord should fill you with His Spirit so that you may walk your day accordingly and in his guidance. The Spirit already indwells you but ask that you may be filled as it was with the early believers; they prayed and after they prayed they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and thus all had the courage to speak the word of God boldly, (Acts 4:31). Peter filled with the Holy Spirit was able to stand before the leaders with boldness and declare the name of Jesus Christ, (Acts 4:8). Stephen, full of the Holy Spirit was able to look up to heaven and see the glory of God and Jesus Christ sitting at his right hand, (Acts 7:55). Paul tells us, ‘do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead be filled with the Spirit', (Ephesians 5:18). And when you pray, do not be double minded in your petition but believing with all faith…

Why am I a Christian

This week is UWE Christian union events week where the Christian union seek to put on different events, open to all with the opportunity for all to hear and question who Jesus is, and the radical difference that our decision about him makes. I will be hosting one of these events in my house titled ‘games, food and discussion (why am I a Christian). Initially I thought of doing the presentation but I passed the responsibility to one of the speakers of the events week. Anyways I knew what I would say if I was to do the presentation and thus I write it on this blog. It is exciting to see how this week will unfold and I am confident that God’s will will be done.

Before I answer the question why am I a Christian, it is important to give a definition of what is a Christian. A Christian is someone who follows Jesus as presented in the bible. Therefore the definition of a Christian cannot change from generation to generation and a Christian will believe the fundamental truths that the bible c…

Why is my soul downcast within me

Why is my soul downcast within me? Why can I not rejoice and uplift my soul with your praises? Once I was strong and my feet was quick to your house But now I struggle to wake to sing the psalms. My prayers are shortened, and my heart is heavy. What a burden this is to me! My sin has made me weary and at night I cannot sleep My bed is drenched with tears, for I have fallen away from my love Your words I have strayed from and the result is unrighteousness. How I have fallen from the depths of high and departed from your ways I have delighted in worldly things. What was it that I lacked when I was in your presence, for surely it was nought And tremendous peace I received. Truly it is, truly it is The heart is deceitful above all things and mine has deceived me It told me of false securities and puffed up my righteousness. It made me lavish in my pride and promised me empty things. Now I am weak and a terrible sight to behold I sit in the dust and covered with ashes, the dogs have become my best friend. …

Upward call to Heaven

This is my poor attempt to imitate the wonderful book called ‘Stepping Heavenward’. The book is written in a journal style format and it details the story of a girl as she lives her life and grow in godliness. Its worth a read for all girls and boys perhaps may learn from it as well. I am currently reading it and it has inspired me to imitate Prentiss style and write one of my own, titled, ‘Upward call to heaven’. I will be writing it and posting it up in parts. You can download and read Stepping heavenward from this link:Stepping Heavenward.

Upward call to Heaven (3)

Two weeks have since passed since my decline in health and today brings with the sunrise a healthy appetite for an outdoor walk. My bed had been my companion far to long and a change of scenery will do splendours for my young mind. Amelia promised to meet me before the morning ends to go for a stroll in the open fields and there she would spill on me all that she had learnt in class. I was doubly excited for once again I …

Our Relentless War Against Sin

Have you ever wondered, “Why do I have to deal with sin at all? If God hates sin, if true Christians hate sin, and we’re all in agreement, then why must it remain?” That’s not a bad question to ask. Why would a good God leave behind such a menacing enemy that corrupts your relationships, threatens your holiness, hinders your worship, and causes so much anguish in your life? I’ve often wondered if the children of Israel entertained the same thoughts about their pagan neighbors—the Gentile nations who continually harassed them. Remember their history? God empowered the Israelites, under the leadership of Joshua to enter Canaan, dispossess the inhabitants and seize control. Joshua was unstoppable. After the initial set-back at Ai, Israel conquered nation after nation, killing the leaders, inhabiting the cities, and establishing control. It’s one of the most captivating portions of Old Testament history to read. But when the dust settled and Joshua had grown old, a new generation of Israelite…

Behind the waterfall

Behind the waterfall
A gold heart laid
In the basket slept
The heart of grace

A sweet heavy voice
Beckoned my face
"Come here and take
This heart is yours".

But sir I feel an unworthy cause
My past has made me hard and tough
I carry a stone that is not my own
The weight stills my guilty soul

Years I've cried for this sin of mine
Killing all my dreams sweetly afar
The worst of all, I am not the one
To be blamed for this path I've gone

"Come my Son beyond this fall
and take this gift that is yours
I know thy feel and thy sacred plea
The grace you need is here and free".


Signs and wonders and the Kingdom message

These passages show how Jesus and His disciples preached the message of the kingdom accompanied with signs and wonders. Jesus has given us authority and a commission to reach the ends of the earth with the good news of the kingdom so let us hasten in our duty with all diligence preaching and manifesting the glory of God in the obedience of unbelievers to the message accompanied with signs and wonders.

Matthew 9:35-38 
Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, proclaiming the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness.36When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd.37Then he said to his disciples,“The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few.38 Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field.”

Mark 1:15,39 
“The time has come,” he said. “The kingdom of God has come near. Repent and believe the good news!” Jesus replied,“L…