It is not God that sells me short in regards to my joy, but me. O how often I ought to kneel before the Father, flying into his arms and enjoying all of his sunshine. Instead, I wallow in sin, delighting my heart, not on God's will but gratifying my dead flesh. O to reflect his glory! But how can I reflect him if I am not in his presence? O for obedience. O for sweet backbreaking obedience to the sweet law of Christ. I happily and bitterly repent of all my sins and gladly come before Him in the sweet righteousness of Christ.
Saturday, 27 July 2019
We are to truly cast aside our own righteousness. Whatever we may see to be good in us we must abandon and favour Christ's righteousness instead. So in whatever state I am, I come to God solely on the merit of Jesus Christ. I can never appeal to this or that deed, only to the deeds of Christ. I regret and repent of my sins, but my sins will not stop me from coming to God because Jesus has paid for my sins and covered me in His righteousness, so I have no reason to ever delay my coming to God. I have no reason to sit in judgment of myself because even in my best of deeds I am guilty just as I am in my worst of sins. so I come to God casting aside my own righteousness in favour of Christ's righteousness.
Sunday, 21 July 2019
I'm awake once again in the midnight
If in the day I told her the truth
I would be sound asleep
Like people in the graveyard
Is it wrong for me to pray
I came from the land of no fathers
But my mama raised me
With respect respecting my history
Forgive me I'm a coward
When I dined you
Should have brought you under the stars and told you how I loved you
From the start, but was afraid I would lose you
My sister called me an alcoholic
Because I chose to drink a bottle
Everytime I thought you didn’t want me
Dear God change her will
Because you know how I feel
She's the light in my darkness
In the darkness, I pray harder
In the light I'm cautious
I ran away to the way
Ever since I learned to pray
When I drank the blood of God
Every day is a mayday but Jesus comes to save me
Her blueish eyes are all I see when I gaze upon the sky
As I lay on my back and because I'm black
I gotta stay strap and fight for every dream
Your head on my lap as you gaze into my brown eyes
Can you tell that I've found in you what I've been looking for
My heart aches from the dream I can not see
Her eyes had me by the sea
So real but it's out of my touch
And her hands when we sat on the couch
I felt compelled to act
But her rejection was a fact.
Impossible to reconcile my dreams to reality
I wish I could be part of her normality
Break my confidentiality as we walk
Is it wrong for me to write these lines
What is a man to do when his heart pines?
Saturday, 20 July 2019
Dear Lord, please forgive me for all of my sins. I know that in Christ Jesus I have been forgiven and counted righteous. Yet I wish and will for more holiness in my life, that I would be a sweet aroma of kindness and humility to all around me. O help me in the midnight hours, and in the high noon that my heart remains pure and my attitude towards all is of love. teach me again your ways and cause me to obey them. O my everlasting saviour, How great thou art!
Her beauty shines, A monolith among the rest. I wish to forgo But when holiness fills my soul, I am drawn to her, The forbidden pasture...