My Joy

It is not God that sells me short in regards to my joy, but me.  O how often I ought to kneel before the Father, flying into his arms and enjoying all of his sunshine. Instead, I wallow in sin, delighting my heart, not on God's will but gratifying my dead flesh. O to reflect his glory! But how can I reflect him if I am not in his presence? O for obedience. O for sweet backbreaking obedience to the sweet law of Christ. I happily and bitterly repent of all my sins and gladly come before Him in the sweet righteousness of Christ.

K.Oni

Cast aside my own righteousness

We are to truly cast aside our own righteousness. Whatever we may see to be good in us we must abandon and favour Christ's righteousness instead. So in whatever state I am, I come to God solely on the merit of Jesus Christ. I can never appeal to this or that deed, only to the deeds of Christ. I regret and repent of my sins, but my sins will not stop me from coming to God because Jesus has paid for my sins and covered me in His righteousness, so I have no reason to ever delay my coming to God. I have no reason to sit in judgment of myself because even in my best of deeds I am guilty just as I am in my worst of sins. so I come to God casting aside my own righteousness in favour of Christ's righteousness.

K.Oni

Say what you want to say

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I'm awake once again in the midnight

If in the day I told her the truth

I would be sound asleep

Like people in the graveyard

Is it wrong for me to pray

I came from the land of no fathers

But my mama raised me

With respect respecting my history

Forgive me I'm a coward

When I dined you

Should have brought you under the stars and told you how I loved you

From the start, but was afraid I would lose you

My sister called me an alcoholic

Because I chose to drink a bottle

Everytime I thought you didn’t want me

Dear God change her will

Because you know how I feel

She's the light in my darkness

In the darkness, I pray harder

In the light I'm cautious

I ran away to the way

Ever since I learned to pray 

When I drank the blood of God

Every day is a mayday but Jesus comes to save me

Her blueish eyes are all I see when I gaze upon the sky

As I lay on my back and because I'm black

I gotta stay strap and fight for every dream

Your head on my lap as you gaze into my brown eyes

Can you tell that I've found in you what I've been looking for

K.Oni

My heart aches

My heart aches from the dream I can not see

Her eyes had me by the sea

So real but it's out of my touch

And her hands when we sat on the couch

I felt compelled to act

But her rejection was a fact.

Impossible to reconcile my dreams to reality

I wish I could be part of her normality

Break my confidentiality as we walk

Is it wrong for me to write these lines

What is a man to do when his heart pines?

K.Oni

Prayer for my soul

Dear Lord, please forgive me for all of my sins. I know that in Christ Jesus I have been forgiven and counted righteous. Yet I wish and will for more holiness in my life, that I would be a sweet aroma of kindness and humility to all around me. O help me in the midnight hours, and in the high noon that my heart remains pure and my attitude towards all is of love. teach me again your ways and cause me to obey them. O my everlasting saviour, How great thou art!

K.Oni