The Lord did bless me after all of my evil sinnings. Oh, the history of Christianity! Sometimes it is hard to discern the truth. What is christ up to? I wonder often about this? But I praise him for the interview I had today for by His Spirit he put in my heart to research a question just before the interview and the question did come up. I do t think I’ll be unsuccessful but I thank God for the opportunity.
K.Oni
What to say to you
After a while of not speaking.
You were always on my mind but I know that I was absent from yours.
I relinquished my desire
Knowing that you did not care for me,
But I should have been brave
And approached you with an ultimatum.
Dear sweet love,
Tell me what you think?
As much as I have neglected you,
your beauty has failed to escape my mind.
And I am of a pious line even though I sin daily
I am not brave enough
To lead a lady on that I do not desire her heart.
I would have soon got over you
If I could play such a game.
I would have lost myself in the touch of another woman
Who is fine and my sweet words would have kissed her lips to surrender.
K.Oni
My sweet dear
Lost to the feeling of my love
Eternal to my mind,
I always ruin what is important to you.
My soul, my eternal friend
I love you but lying repentance is my excuse.
K.Oni
Oh Dear Sunny, the apple of my eye. I desire to see you soon. Listen to my words:
I am convinced perhaps by all of my own internal strong feelings towards her that she is to be mine. I have no external encouragement from her, in fact quiet the opposite but then a woman often makes these things hard as not to be seen as desperate. But I am fickle and too nice to pursue when all the signs are pointing elsewhere. I did it once when I knew all the signs were negative and in fact I had buried the chase until I was encouraged. I should have listened to my own wisdom but will I listen now concerning her? If my hook should catch her I would be the happiest of all fisher men and this one catch would be enough for me for my whole life. But what to do? What to do? I now await a sign from the heavens as you know I am very superstitious for I lean towards that pagan religion of astrology, and until I receive that sign I will be still. All my blessings and demise have been written long ago in the stars. I know that you are a Christian but our love for one another is so great that I see you as my constant sun. I do not know if she is still single my dear Sunny or if she is now taken by the man she loves. But life goes on day by day until in a thousand years no one remembers that I once lived in love. Please reply quickly my Sunny!
Yours forever
Homer
There was no encouragement
She went to lengths to deny it.
But I press on with a smile
One life to lead is too much to timid through.
Come what may, scorn or gloom
Can never take away my awe, of her ravishing regal beam.
K.Oni
Just because we know that we are wretched sinners and vile in heart does not mean that we are saved. A man may know that he is thirsty but not have water. Knowing that you are a sinner is not enough. You must be saved from your sins!
Come to Jesus, look and live! Only Jesus can save you from your miserable sins.
K.Oni
Yesterday my church spoke on abortion and the evil of it. The statistics are staggering and how awful it is that we promote a culture of death while simultaneously promoting equality. The god of this world truly has blinded the minds of humanity so that they cannot see the light of Christ in the face of God. Life is a gift to be treasured and preserved and only forfeited when true justice has called it so.
At the end of the sermon I prayed for every Christian women that has had an abortion (there are different reasons why people have an abortion)- I pray that you O Lord make them see the errors (some may not see this as an error as there may have been medical reasons why this had to be done. I do not speak to this although there may be guilt from it) of their ways if they haven’t yet seen it and may you heal them by his stripes (Jesus). May you set them free and make them know and feel the love of your goodness that their sins have been eternally forgiven.
There are many reasons people have an abortion and some are very complicated. My part is to show compassion, to love, to pray, to serve and to fight the good fight of faith. May God lead us in all righteousness of which I fall far short. Men are also guilty, we as a community are guilty and only God can restore us all to love one another in a way that will see all evils dissolve from our midst. There is a kingdom to come and it is here. The fullness of it will come and there will be no more unrighteousness.
Dear peace, come to the bay
To see where the insidious sin has led me to lay,
Far beyond the jovial sky
My pursued love haply dashed without a reason why.
Two weeks of insincere strength
My miserable spectacle stretches beyond the horizons length.
K.Oni
Blessed be the name of the Lord who restores us from our wayward ways. He is truly the good shepherd who goes after the sheep. I haply wandered away from him for a while, and in my unbelief all I found was misery. The further I went away from him in my heart, the greater the darkness grew. I needed the light and to always be in the light. But he restores my soul, he leads me in the path of righteousness.
He has told me no less than that for his name I would suffer. The storm will rise and descend my way but he will not leave me nor forsake me. He sleeps during the storm so that I can smile at the storm. Oh, help my unbelief. And to know his will, I must be content with his word and follow all that he has revealed. But whether I will live tomorrow or do this or that, then I happily submit to his immutable sovereignty. He declares the end and the begining. He gives the result as well as the means.
Oh, thank you Jesus for loving me when I have disgraced your name to the host of heaven by falling to depraved sins. O, forgive me sweet Lord!
K.Oni
My sins are deep - deeper than the bottom of the sea.
What am I to do. I want to pray but my flesh is too weak.
Will I ever win, I do believe, help my unbelief.
The world is looking in, I can't slip but deep inside
I am falling and afraid I won't get back up.
The Lord will fight for me
May my obedience increase.
I want to see God, but only the pure in heart will see his face.
K.Oni
Forgive me Lord for all of my wicked ways.
I have done wickedly even after you have blessed me.
I have been a beast unsatisfied with your ways.
I drank deep at the ways of the world, drinking its wine of lust and flesh of greed
I have not loved my portion and have been discontent.
Forgive me Lord and let me change my ways.
I will return to the ways of patience and seeking only Joy in thee.
Bless me with the joy of your salvation that you alone can give.
May I continue in prayer and be free from the burden of guilt.
Blessed always be your name, now and forevermore
Amen!
K.Oni
